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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

UTAR - my choice vs F6 - my parents choice

Time ,
really rush , rush like the river , if we miss it , we can't have another chance to repeat the same events . So , should cherish it.

Decision ,
should think twice before we do any decisions , it can influence your future .

Life ,
really full of ups and downs , I just realized it artlessly.

Yesterday , I called my mom , and told her that I'm really miss my home indeed family, and my tears dropped across my cheek automatically. I cried myself inside my room yesterday night ,without anyone knew it just my mom, she heard my sobbing sound. I feel alone and helpless without my family . I told my mom , am I chosen a wrong decision ? should I continue form 6 or foundation ? This statement pondered in my mind and puzzled me. At here , sometime I feel suffer a lot , but sometime I enjoyed the life here . @.@

Foundation - Foreign state , paid the fee already ( 3 thousands ++ ), got a few of bosom friends , miss my family , needs to settle 3 meals our self , learn how to be independence.

Form 6 - tough , late for about 1 month ( because I'm here for about a couple of weeks ) , stay with my family (Penang) , needs to buy a lot of reference books , no transport , a familiar place for me.

My uncle also persuade me study form 6 , my mom too ...

But my problem is the plan coming to UTAR to pursue my tertiary studies is ME !!!
How could I spoil my plan !! I'm not being forced by parents !!!


Does foundation is my final decision ?
I think it is !

Friday, June 12, 2009

Life at foreign state

I'm being here for about 2 weeks. My new life here quite suffer initially. Now , adapts well a bit , at lease can mix well with my friends and my housemates.
My first requirement is FRIEND , I really scare alone , especially alone walks on the aisle inside the campus , the 'pedestrians' will stare at you with suspecious expression , someone even laugh and criticize your attire =.=" . I can feel the dreadful sense that rush towards me. This university is damn huge , lets me lost of my direction , and experienced such 'terror' event.

25th May , was my first day of study. I did it quite bad , this is because of I late for my class for about 1 hour !!! First day !!! Because of this , coincidently, I met my 3 friends , can be considered bosom friends , really everytime , every minutes , every seconds also together . They are 3 girls which come from JB (Yap), KL (Xiao Hen) and Perak ( Dragon) . 3 of them also older than me , my big sisters , one of them being my daddy =.=''.
Really appreciate it I can meet them. ^^

Come to my studies , I can say , I really can't handle well with those unfamiliar subjects , especially computer studies. Gradually , I started felt a bit stress to handle my chemistry and biology. The lecturers was good , they all at lease hold a degree's to teach us , but they taught too fast. 1 lecture = 3 hours study ourself , should figure it out ourself to find the answer. Luckilly got tutorial class , we can discuss the questions together.

The very first week I come here , I really SUFFER a lot , I wanna cry , needs someone helps , needs someone to talk with . But finally I din't do it . I cope myself through this blog. I miss my family as well , although relatively contact with each others. Wish my grand-mother operation successfully done , and have a visit to me as soon as possible. I really miss you all. My family ~~

Life independantly , realized that this small 'social' is full of vicious and evils, anyone can betray you , even your close friends. I'm repel surreptitiously by one of them. I vaguely know that the reasons of being repel is NOTHING. Haiz ~

HOME SWEET HOME , likes my home , like the air-conditional , here really hot !!

Dad ,
'thanks you and I love you , support me the fee of studing at UTAR .'

Mom ,
'hopes that everythings can be passed faster , recovers the normal life.'

G.ma,
'I got the news yesterday that your surgery was successful , really glad to hear the news , hopes you can come Perak to visit me , miss you.'